I wrote about panic attacks for Romper

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I was recently told by someone who knows me very well that I conceal my anxiety like a cool cucumber. Maybe that's true, and not everyone in the whole world knows I've been struggling with anxiety and panic since Lizzie was born. Well, first, it is getting better. :D I was able to write about it for Romper.com!

My Baby's Appointments Triggered Panic Attacks, But I Learned To Cope



"I found that staying aware of tangible things around me left less mental space for catastrophizing."

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