Anna Be.

It started in January. The doctors said, "If you want us to build you another sciencebaby, you have to stop being diabetic. Go!" I appreciate a challenge, and I was determined. I started seeing my endocrinologist monthly,  taking more medication each time, acquiring a continuous glucose monitor, living a model diabetic lifestyle. I thought a few months, no big deal, I can do this. Every month's test results were a disappointment. I didn't have bad  test results, mind you. My labs were always marked "Excellent" -- by diabetic standards. Regardless, I was chasing a unicorn, trying to meet an unattainable standard, be cured of a disease that doesn't just go away when you ask it to. That means nine months of neurotic attention to blood sugar readings, food, exercise.  Nine months of recurrent guilt for not being able to meet the goal. Today I had another appointment with the endocrinologist. I've worried about it all week, wanted to cry from ...

Image via Wikipedia Last Fall was full of family worry and stress because my Grammaw was sick and then dying. Boy, what a way to start a post! The point is I put off applying to graduate school because it was just too much. And every time I've thought of it since the first of the year, my head just goes back to those worrisome months. It was a hurdle for me to get over to just be willing to think of applying, and the first step was checking the application deadline for Summer. Once I did that yesterday, I started to feel the excitement again! Today I looked back over the course catalog and these are the classes I'm most excited about: Economics of Information Development of Libraries, Publishing and Communication Serial Publications Special Collections Preservation Rare Books Publishing Yeah! I could work in a museum library or something! Like at the McNay ! I love going to the library at the McNay .