I mentioned my training to the doctor a few weeks ago with a reluctant and doubtful tone.
"I'm still running? Training for a half-marathon? But like, I don't know."
"When is the race?"
"So three months away."
"Oh my god you're right, I have three months. It felt so much closer."
"And you only need to be able to run 6-7 miles before the race."
"I can do 6 miles, I do that now! And I still have three months!"See how powerful the irrational mind can be? I forgot the actual facts of my training program, lost perspective on time and distance, and totally tricked myself into thinking I couldn't do this.
My conversation with the doctor really helped me reclaim my motivation and confidence, but i psyched myself out again just last weekend. I was set to run 6 miles Saturday, but I had my eye focused too hard on the clock. When I saw how slow my pace was after 2 and 3 miles, I said screw this. I quit after 4.5 miles with plenty of steam to finish the full 6. I forgot the distance is what matters on long runs, and I should have ignored my time all together.
Monday I was slow and wobbly after a Sunday night binge on pizza. Today I was fast and optimistic after a day of good fuel and rest.
I now have 9 weeks left to train, and it's time to keep my head in the right place.