Monday, June 15, 2015

Does starting the terrible twos early mean we'll be done early?

I will spare my daughter her dignity by not posting a picture of her facedown on the floor and screaming. This is not her true self.  You know she's a happy little darling.

But today is one of those days. All Mamie wants to do are the specific things I've told her not to do: playing with wall sockets, climbing on the coffee table, pulling out dirty diapers. She has shown a genius-level aptitude for identifying limits and pushing them. I know this determination builds the independence that will define her later. Her new brain is both overwhelmed with information and begging to be challenged. She has honed her physical coordination for walking, climbing, grabbing, throwing, but knows no context for when those things are not safe or appropriate.

And worst of all, Mama's annoyance feeds into her need for stimulation. She yells for me to come to her, she runs away, she hides, she gets quiet, I find her back in one of the naughty spots I just pulled her out of.

Then she makes a shame face, tucking her ear into her shoulder. I tell her I know she's sorry, we'll figure it out together.

Friday, June 12, 2015

What I am reading now: the practical and the bizarre

I provide this list without commentary; you may draw your own conclusions. I only promise it is true that I am actively reading all of these simultaneously.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Believing in third chances: How I'm finally going to get my home office organized and ready for work

On March 30, I declared my determination to finally get my office unpacked and organized.  Two months later, this is what it looks like:


So, really, what is it going to take to make some progress here?  I had to think about what is blocking the process.

  1. Entry to the room is literally blocked by bags of baby clothes and newborn things that need to be stored in the attic.
  2. Cluttered workspaces bloc all the sewing and writing I want to do in there.
  3. Feeling overwhelmed by the clutter is blocking me from getting any of it under control.  I can work for 15 minutes here and there, but it hasn't amounted to anything that gives me a sense of accomplishment or freedom.
Today, just to get myself to spend 15 minutes in there, I started brainstorming the essential elements of what needs to be done.

Inspiration -- I'm going old school and making a vision board.  I think if I just had a visual reminder of what I want this room to be, I will be motivated to push forward.

Discard -- Getting the garbage and unwanted junk out of the room will make it easier to breathe, easier to see how the things I keep can fit together.

Clean -- In it's ignored condition, the room has collected a lot of dust and cat hair.  Cleaning as I go will create a brighter and fresher environment to work in.

Sort -- In order for my tools and supplies to be useful, they need to be sorted in a way that makes them easy to find and access.

Store -- Finally, I have a huge closet in this room to shelve all those supplies and tools.  Once they are neatly up and away, the room will be open for me to work in!

Reward -- If I can get all the above done, I will reward myself with some curtains, art, a new chair to make it a happy place to work.  I also envision a cozy artspace for Mamie to work in with me.

I'm planning to push all this miscellany to the perimeter of the room and plow through it clockwise.  Woo I actually just got excited!

I think this is the third time I've declared I will once and for all do it. I have to keep trying because I believe eventually it will happen.

Monday, June 1, 2015

My big fat 5k

Yesterday I ran 5k as part of One Big Fat Run. It took me 62 minutes, and frankly, I didn't know it was possible to be so slow. I know speed doesn't matter at all, but I had a personal goal to do it in under an hour.  I will make that goal next time.

I found out about The Fat Girl's Guide to Running  from a commenter on an article I wrote about running at the first of the year. It has been consistently motivating to me this year.  Just knowing there are so many other women who want to run NOW -- and are not waiting until they look like a "runner" -- has muted my excuse button.

Right now my informal running goals are:

  1. Do 5k once a month and get a little faster each time.
  2. Run 10k in September for my 40th birthday.
  3. Run a half marathon in November.
My immediate non-running goal is to go stop my kid from breaking out the front door.